P.O.S (Literally)

At times I wonder which is worse....being poor and out of a job for months, or having a gf who keeps spending her money unwisely even though she works in a bank, or a gf who keeps spending unwisely even though she works in a bank and claims she knows the value of hard earned money, or a gf who spends unwisely, claims she knows the value of money cos' she works in a bank yet does not take control of her own cashflow and but wants to manage her bf's cashflow and wants to get married without forking out a single cent while stepping on my pride and ego that i cant afford that amount by next march 2012 and is afraid she will be an over aged mother.................................
Seriously am i missing out on something?.....i guess not ...apart from the fact that her money is still her money but my money is not my money but her money even though i am broke and out of a job i am still expected to pay for everything with no questions asked................................P.O.S literally.
Day by day i am more convinced that she just likes the idea of getting married....and everything will be free of charge after that....and i have the obligation to take care of her personal bills......... and if i cant pay, she will just ask me to ask my father to clear it under my name of course.......am i thinking too much? i sure as hell am not.
Already in the pits when it comes to her cashflow and she still spends like a king......... everything is on credit of course.....already cashless and yet she bought a pair of golden earrings just to impress her mother on her birthday..........and i had to pay for the cake...........P.O.S i dont even buy anything for my own mum and u dare tell me its ok to splurge on your family? get a life. i have to clear up yr expenses after that!!! and u still wish to continue yr studies next year? fuck my life......thanks for nothing.....more bills and expenses coming my way. Really piece of shit. no money still wanna spend on unnecessary items like facial products.....what is wrong with her man? she cant seem to think properly at all........
I cant go on like this.........it will be the end of me....but what can i do? the calls are not coming in and the depression we are facing is not helping me to secure a job....................
sooner or later, we will argue about money again........sooner or later, she is going to want to buy a few more branded handbags and i have to pay as usual.....ARGH..........seriously what she needs is a rich, gay husband whose occupation is a football coach.........
on another note, if she has so much cash to sign on credit, why cant she buy me my itouch? _l_
She claims she is still by my side even though im jobless......so? please figure out your spending habits first. u just screwed me the other day when i couldn't afford to bring u overseas during your one week leave...... and it was supposed to be your treat........and u gonna give all yr bonus to your mum? wow. filial daughter. thanks for nothing. dont blame me next time if i do the same or dont ask me to give lesser to my parents just to spend on you. i hate to say it, if this really happens our r/s is going nowhere. wake up your damn ideas before i change my mind. u already stepped on my pride twice already. one, for the proposal but u rejected me saying u dont have an answer right in front of yr workplace cctv and even though u are wearing the ring now, it dont count for shit to me. two, for the batam trip when i told u i was on a budget and u went berserk saying u hate to be on a budget especially on trips but u never even contribute much and u insulted me for being poor. BUT u had cash to buy a bottle of Chivas Regal after the trip.........NB
really thanks for nothing. u say u are not like the other girls? i beg to differ...u are rotten in your own ways. u say u dont expect much? bullshit. when a new guy comes along in your life and he is rich and has a quiet nature, u will fall for him and if he proposes u will marry him cos' u are the same. W.K is not a good example of giving up a rich bf since u couldnt forget Mingda at that time.