Nothing Has Changed..

As far as i know it...nothing has changed for me...no matter how much i wished for it...The promises i made to myself that i would change has all come to naught...the promise i swore to change my university life ...never happened...i realised i got lonelier with each passing year...each time i kept thinking what went wrong? Another grave mistake i realised is that i couldnt work in a team...why?why is that so?....it all boiled down on myself...i just couldnt be bothered about how others think...how they thought of me...i never made the effort to try...i just did everything my way...without a care...as a result...i became lonely...an outcast...this was to be expected...it is not because i look down on others or that i shun them away...but probably because i exude an aura...an aura that chokes them in my presence...an aura that makes people sad,afraid...an aura that suffocates them...or maybe...i just cant relate normally to people anymore...what is wrong with me? have i really given up on socialising? when will i stop predicting what will happen as the conversation progresses? when will i stop predicting outcomes even though i know i will be 70% right?....why am i like this? Am i born to be this way right from the start? why can i not change? i do not dislike the way i am currently for it has helped me to survive but what i have to give up in the process aches my heart...Am i fated to be just a distant memory to all my friends?...