Hmm...people used to tell me that time heals all wounds..then there was another saying that no matter how your wounds heal, there will still be a mark or a scar...nicely said and done.since one saying is from a positive view and the latter is from the negative view.but both do make sense in their own logical ways.
the old memories are still lingering somewhere deep in my heart or brain.wish there was some remedy for this..unfortunately humans are not configured with a volatile memory.or we cant erase memories..i really wish i can be happy again...how much longer can i hold out?
Life is kinda routine nowadays...spending most of my weekends at home..cycling at night..still got a long way to go for my driving...driving my instructor nuts apparently.i keep speeding...oh well, i guess its in every guy's nature to do that..then again...i think my TP is approaching soon...
geez...i wonder why im blogging my thoughts now..i guess im still having insomnia...kinda scared to fall asleep nowadays...keep having nightmares.even the doctors dont know what to say..currently, im just drifting in random thoughts.had to force myself back to reality at times..
Some friends said that i have stopped smiling totally...which is a bad sign gotta do somethin about it...been having a shitload in camp recently..oh well...its normal..
i guess i should go back to chanting...in a way it does help..at least its better than the painkillers.
i should do something before i fall back into the abyss.i believe one day i will find what i am looking for.these hauntings will stop.i cant possibly look at life in a different view forever while the others are moving on.but its kinda hard when you have to do it alone..nevertheless, as long as i am alive, some things are worth fighting for.
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Reloaded
1) brand of ur handphone?*
K700i Sony Ericsson
2) wat'll u do if u see ur bf/gf hugging a gal/boi?*
let me c it & call it quits.
3) hav a bf/gf?*
nope.
4) hav ur own room?*
yeah
5) fav pet ?*
Cute furry fluffy funny bunny
6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?*
nothing.numb damn numb...
7) where do u live?*
West region
8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/shelikes u?*
numb.
9) how are you feelin n0w?*
overloaded.
10) where do you hangout?*
home
11) what are you good at?*
stealth
12) what is it bout a person you cantstand?*
indecisive ppl.
13) what do you want?*
happiness
14) a word that describes you?*
pessimistic. naive
15) what is ur dream?*
to be real happi :)
16) day/nite?*
nites
17) sunset/sunrise?*
sunset
18) like a romantic bf/gf?*
who doesnt.
19) what is it about the opposite genderthat attracts you?*
able to make me smile & laugh, chemistry, not a bitch and
able to hold intelligent conversations
20) are you an independent person?*
yes.
21) do you like school?*
sorta.
22) are you stubborn?*
to an extreme
23) believe in God?*
used to.not thinking of renewing my faith.
24) ur favourite sports?*
badminton,swimming,boxing,cycling,go-karting...
25) believe in fate?*
nah!__
26) get pissed off easily?*
depends. good @ tolerating. but DONT test my limits if not you die
27) like ur parents?*
of cos. i love em'
29) believe in love?*
(-.-)" next question pls...
30) will u get a tattoo?*
for what?
31) smoke?*
never tried.
33) wil u forgive ur bf/gf if he cheats on u?*
depends..no point giving second chances when you still get taken for a sucker
34) will u expect ur bf/gf to forgive u?*
see wad ive done 1st.
35) were u on a trip recently?*
yup..visited the highlands.
36) fave country?*
Japan.
37) r u impatient?*
im super patient.but pls dont ask stupid questions.
39) do u organise parties often?*
no point.no one turns up.
40) do u hav good friends?*
yup.but no close friends.
41) do u think u r good-looking?*
Ask others for opinions.
42) do u care about looks?*
looking pleasant will do.
43) do you think that you're a good gf/bf ?*
yes.
45) do you quarrel with people easily?*
nah...waste my breath.they have their reasons anyway. i just leave them alone.
46) are you forgiving?*
depends
47) do you get hurt easily?*
yes.get hurt all the time.physically and emotionally.
48) do you prefer gurls wit long hair?*
wadeva
49) do u prefer guys wid long/short hair?*
as long as it looks good on tt person
50) is ur hair colored?*
nope...never tried colouring my hair.
51) are you a romantic partner?*
sometimes..romantic all the time u buay sianz meh?save them for after your marriage.
52) do you wear a watch??*
yes
53) what color clothes do you like?*
black or white.thats all i have in my wardrobe
54) will you chose love or money?*
love
55) do you prefer sleep or eat?*
sleep...
56) white or black?*
both.
57) pink or red?*
nada.
58) fav flower?*
nada.
K700i Sony Ericsson
2) wat'll u do if u see ur bf/gf hugging a gal/boi?*
let me c it & call it quits.
3) hav a bf/gf?*
nope.
4) hav ur own room?*
yeah
5) fav pet ?*
Cute furry fluffy funny bunny
6) 1 thing u cant live w/o?*
nothing.numb damn numb...
7) where do u live?*
West region
8) wat wud u do if sumone tells u he/shelikes u?*
numb.
9) how are you feelin n0w?*
overloaded.
10) where do you hangout?*
home
11) what are you good at?*
stealth
12) what is it bout a person you cantstand?*
indecisive ppl.
13) what do you want?*
happiness
14) a word that describes you?*
pessimistic. naive
15) what is ur dream?*
to be real happi :)
16) day/nite?*
nites
17) sunset/sunrise?*
sunset
18) like a romantic bf/gf?*
who doesnt.
19) what is it about the opposite genderthat attracts you?*
able to make me smile & laugh, chemistry, not a bitch and
able to hold intelligent conversations
20) are you an independent person?*
yes.
21) do you like school?*
sorta.
22) are you stubborn?*
to an extreme
23) believe in God?*
used to.not thinking of renewing my faith.
24) ur favourite sports?*
badminton,swimming,boxing,cycling,go-karting...
25) believe in fate?*
nah!__
26) get pissed off easily?*
depends. good @ tolerating. but DONT test my limits if not you die
27) like ur parents?*
of cos. i love em'
29) believe in love?*
(-.-)" next question pls...
30) will u get a tattoo?*
for what?
31) smoke?*
never tried.
33) wil u forgive ur bf/gf if he cheats on u?*
depends..no point giving second chances when you still get taken for a sucker
34) will u expect ur bf/gf to forgive u?*
see wad ive done 1st.
35) were u on a trip recently?*
yup..visited the highlands.
36) fave country?*
Japan.
37) r u impatient?*
im super patient.but pls dont ask stupid questions.
39) do u organise parties often?*
no point.no one turns up.
40) do u hav good friends?*
yup.but no close friends.
41) do u think u r good-looking?*
Ask others for opinions.
42) do u care about looks?*
looking pleasant will do.
43) do you think that you're a good gf/bf ?*
yes.
45) do you quarrel with people easily?*
nah...waste my breath.they have their reasons anyway. i just leave them alone.
46) are you forgiving?*
depends
47) do you get hurt easily?*
yes.get hurt all the time.physically and emotionally.
48) do you prefer gurls wit long hair?*
wadeva
49) do u prefer guys wid long/short hair?*
as long as it looks good on tt person
50) is ur hair colored?*
nope...never tried colouring my hair.
51) are you a romantic partner?*
sometimes..romantic all the time u buay sianz meh?save them for after your marriage.
52) do you wear a watch??*
yes
53) what color clothes do you like?*
black or white.thats all i have in my wardrobe
54) will you chose love or money?*
love
55) do you prefer sleep or eat?*
sleep...
56) white or black?*
both.
57) pink or red?*
nada.
58) fav flower?*
nada.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Next...
1. describe your present state of mind
- Random thoughts...
2. where do u usually hang-out?
- Camp...home...west coast park...
3. ever stepped on sh*t on the road?+
- Nope...one lucky fella i am =)
4.last movie u saw & with whom?+
- House of Fury with Annie...
5.most expensive thing u bought with your own money?+
- err....i dunno...never had anything expensive before and now
6. Good looks or brains?+
- Both of cuz..! I don't wanna to haf gd brains and look like sh*t and gd looks wif sh*t for brains...
7. they say "you are who you hang out with" describe your friends:+
- Dont have many friends...how to describe?
8.have you ever fallen in-love with a friend?
- everyone does right? it usually started off as fren...Duh...
9.what would u do if u caught your guy/girl & bestfriend sleeping together?
- Thats life isnt it? Your best friend sticks with you until he gets what he wants...and then you are no longer friends...
10. if you could be someone else for one day who would it be & why?
- Constantine...John Constantine...or Ironman...no reason...
12. ever punched someone?+
- Of cuz..! why not..?
13. what did that person say to you?+
- he insulted my family...
14. which do u prefer?jollibee or mcd?+
- what's tt...?
15. wendy's or kfc?+
- Never heard of wendy's and I hate KFC...
16. who would u choose, the one u love or the one who loves u?+
- is there one that works both ways?
17. ever broken someone's heart?+
- Yup...after she broke mine of course...
18. ever had your heart broken?+
- in fragments that cant be pieced back together with glue...
19. what did u do to the person who broke your heart?
- I juz let her go...what else could i have done?
20. what's inside your bag?+
- gloves,mp3 player,swiss army knife,towel,bluetooth,zippo..
21. fave past time?+
- hanging out wif my frenz and make them laugh...
22. biggest regret in life?+
- not cherishing what i have with the temper of mine...
23. worst experience you've been through?
- surviving in a jungle...
24. best place you'd rather be?
- Singapore so small...
25. would u kiss on a 1st date?+
- I wouldn't dare...
26. last time u cried?+
- a year back...
27. most embarassing thing u did for love?+
- so many....
28. u in love right now?
- Nope....nobody wan me...
29. is someone in-love with u?+
- Hahahaha...you must be joking...
30. describe your present love life in a song+
- It's hard to love somebody...
- Random thoughts...
2. where do u usually hang-out?
- Camp...home...west coast park...
3. ever stepped on sh*t on the road?+
- Nope...one lucky fella i am =)
4.last movie u saw & with whom?+
- House of Fury with Annie...
5.most expensive thing u bought with your own money?+
- err....i dunno...never had anything expensive before and now
6. Good looks or brains?+
- Both of cuz..! I don't wanna to haf gd brains and look like sh*t and gd looks wif sh*t for brains...
7. they say "you are who you hang out with" describe your friends:+
- Dont have many friends...how to describe?
8.have you ever fallen in-love with a friend?
- everyone does right? it usually started off as fren...Duh...
9.what would u do if u caught your guy/girl & bestfriend sleeping together?
- Thats life isnt it? Your best friend sticks with you until he gets what he wants...and then you are no longer friends...
10. if you could be someone else for one day who would it be & why?
- Constantine...John Constantine...or Ironman...no reason...
12. ever punched someone?+
- Of cuz..! why not..?
13. what did that person say to you?+
- he insulted my family...
14. which do u prefer?jollibee or mcd?+
- what's tt...?
15. wendy's or kfc?+
- Never heard of wendy's and I hate KFC...
16. who would u choose, the one u love or the one who loves u?+
- is there one that works both ways?
17. ever broken someone's heart?+
- Yup...after she broke mine of course...
18. ever had your heart broken?+
- in fragments that cant be pieced back together with glue...
19. what did u do to the person who broke your heart?
- I juz let her go...what else could i have done?
20. what's inside your bag?+
- gloves,mp3 player,swiss army knife,towel,bluetooth,zippo..
21. fave past time?+
- hanging out wif my frenz and make them laugh...
22. biggest regret in life?+
- not cherishing what i have with the temper of mine...
23. worst experience you've been through?
- surviving in a jungle...
24. best place you'd rather be?
- Singapore so small...
25. would u kiss on a 1st date?+
- I wouldn't dare...
26. last time u cried?+
- a year back...
27. most embarassing thing u did for love?+
- so many....
28. u in love right now?
- Nope....nobody wan me...
29. is someone in-love with u?+
- Hahahaha...you must be joking...
30. describe your present love life in a song+
- It's hard to love somebody...