Sunday, July 26, 2009
The Chin-Up
13 and a half chin-ups on 25th july at 2039hrs, Saturday. This is a good day to remember.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Manipulator of Deceits
It sucks to be left behind. But what can I do since i am not academically inclined? The year 2009 is ending in a few more months and my uni acquaintances will be graduating...and yess i will be left behind...as usual..
Failure has kinda become a habit for me. seems that i have lost willpower to overcome obstacles.Instead i just charge right into it without planning. My interest span has taken another dip. and now i am no longer interested in anything. i keep getting bored ever so easily. going with the flow. just going wherever life takes me or fate takes me.
On another note whatever i do doesnt seem to be right. even if i were to make a decision and go forth, i will still be criticised for taking action...even being myself is also an issue.
Inflexible, Insensitive, Insensible, Intolerable... Thats how people currently view me because they deem me stubborn with a very bad attitude. and they expect me to change while they carry on their selfish acts of righteousness since they command a horde of followers while being charismatic. it seems people cant take bad news. praise them a little, bribe them a little, and they swear their allegiance to you unsuspectingly. if you do not join them, people deem you as a social outcast and that you will never recieve any help or salvation.
and so so my own future reference and manipulation, i decided to do a little profiling of my uni acquaintances on my private blog...
lets begin alphabetically from my orientation group:
Ben New : Our general knowledge wolf in sheeps clothing, mr know-it-all, super student who hates losing but really gives his all in whatever he does. has a big ego but in a much more controlled state.
Bryan Chew : old time army fren. needless to say, i hate being around with him for all the bullshit and egoistic comments he has ever given out ever so freely to people he feels are less than him.
Candy Chio : not to be deceived by her surname... pretentious girl who shows her true nature the moment she is surrounded by junior college students. tends to look down on poly students with her bitchazoid ego.
Chiau Yi Foo : Super smart student working in the shadows. not really a social creature for she keeps rejecting social gatherings.
Derrick Ho : another ego bastard. almost feels like he is a two headed snake. cant believe he is a leo like me. he hates losing and his temper is worst than mine. at least i bother to show i have a temper. the worst type of temper is the silent nuclear explosion temper. so a note to you derrick, if u got something to say, say it right out u bloody bastard.
Donghan Chan : Silent killer. cautious threader. if he finds that he cant get along with you, he will find something else more entertaining to do or live with. follower of Junsheng.
Junsheng Chin : another wolf in sheeps clothing...willing to abandon frens over a girl...holes before bros mentality. and a farking racist. if you are not with him, most likely you can never be a friend to him.
Kamariah Rezha : Cheeky malay girl. Angelina Jolie thats what she told me her name was during introduction...emo girl at times....but its ok for a girl to be emo...not a guy...what a joke.
Lionel Lim : another super student. super quiet but acidic at the tip of his tongue. almost like a venomous black adder that snares or bits you the moment you harress it. another follower of Junsheng.
Mario Oyama : mario mario...guess i have the most to say abt you even though you think im not observing. never ready to trust someone completely. only reason he is in control is because of his wealth. super direct guy. and he penalized me for ever being so direct about my feelings because he says it will hurt a girls feelings. tells me to not to be so emo and not to make my hand gestures so obvious because people dont like others to talk behind them...thanks for the tip mario. but you are no different. if you are that sensitive towards girls, you would have had plenty of girlfriends in the past. The only reason im what i am now is because im just collecting useful intel for future manipulation. SO DUN BE SO FARKING FULL OF YOURSELF. even if you tell me you are doing this as a friend.HA wellllll....so be it. I am what I Am. but thanks for reminding me of my purpose =) i almost lost track of it.
Max : malay hip dude. hmm...he seems farking stressed abt everything. for fark man? whos the one failing? whos the one getting backstabbed? me. so dun farking keep saying stressed. I AM MORE FARKING STRESSED THAN YOU WHEN I CANT TRUST ANYONE.
Shaun Sim : so far my views are neutral for him. but who knows? he could have bastard me for all i know. same poly , we even know the same friend. and he wouldnt have known this orientation team if not for me. cos i was the one who introduced him to the team...but i guess he has forgotten.
Terence Lim : (who the hell was he again?) oh ya..skirt chaser like our horny bastard kia Derrick Ho.
Sheesh...writing all these has given me a very bad headache. in the end no one is perfect.so i wonder why people always have to criticise me of what i am. seriously people, i can be a greater asshole than what i am now, dont tempt me. i still have not forgotten what i did to my good secondary school fren jingsheng...and believe me, i enjoyed it. the terror, the feeling of him going crazy when i told on him to his precious girlfriend. He deserved it.not saying i am not in the wrong, oh yes i was wrong to tell on him, but im just returning the favour on what a lousy fren he had been for the past 15 years of our brotherhood. ahahaha, vengeance is so sweet. but that is my true nature. im not having a split personality or whatsoever, but thats just me. Unable to take criticisms, unable to trust, an endless capacity to hate, a vengeful spirit, a destroyer of what he loves, a loner. everything has its price. and unfortunately, i guess this is the path i chose after facing so much rejection and sadness and sorrow and knowing so many pretentious hypocrites with insincere sincerity. people there are always two sides to any story. So i pray you do not forgive me for what i have become.
Failure has kinda become a habit for me. seems that i have lost willpower to overcome obstacles.Instead i just charge right into it without planning. My interest span has taken another dip. and now i am no longer interested in anything. i keep getting bored ever so easily. going with the flow. just going wherever life takes me or fate takes me.
On another note whatever i do doesnt seem to be right. even if i were to make a decision and go forth, i will still be criticised for taking action...even being myself is also an issue.
Inflexible, Insensitive, Insensible, Intolerable... Thats how people currently view me because they deem me stubborn with a very bad attitude. and they expect me to change while they carry on their selfish acts of righteousness since they command a horde of followers while being charismatic. it seems people cant take bad news. praise them a little, bribe them a little, and they swear their allegiance to you unsuspectingly. if you do not join them, people deem you as a social outcast and that you will never recieve any help or salvation.
and so so my own future reference and manipulation, i decided to do a little profiling of my uni acquaintances on my private blog...
lets begin alphabetically from my orientation group:
Ben New : Our general knowledge wolf in sheeps clothing, mr know-it-all, super student who hates losing but really gives his all in whatever he does. has a big ego but in a much more controlled state.
Bryan Chew : old time army fren. needless to say, i hate being around with him for all the bullshit and egoistic comments he has ever given out ever so freely to people he feels are less than him.
Candy Chio : not to be deceived by her surname... pretentious girl who shows her true nature the moment she is surrounded by junior college students. tends to look down on poly students with her bitchazoid ego.
Chiau Yi Foo : Super smart student working in the shadows. not really a social creature for she keeps rejecting social gatherings.
Derrick Ho : another ego bastard. almost feels like he is a two headed snake. cant believe he is a leo like me. he hates losing and his temper is worst than mine. at least i bother to show i have a temper. the worst type of temper is the silent nuclear explosion temper. so a note to you derrick, if u got something to say, say it right out u bloody bastard.
Donghan Chan : Silent killer. cautious threader. if he finds that he cant get along with you, he will find something else more entertaining to do or live with. follower of Junsheng.
Junsheng Chin : another wolf in sheeps clothing...willing to abandon frens over a girl...holes before bros mentality. and a farking racist. if you are not with him, most likely you can never be a friend to him.
Kamariah Rezha : Cheeky malay girl. Angelina Jolie thats what she told me her name was during introduction...emo girl at times....but its ok for a girl to be emo...not a guy...what a joke.
Lionel Lim : another super student. super quiet but acidic at the tip of his tongue. almost like a venomous black adder that snares or bits you the moment you harress it. another follower of Junsheng.
Mario Oyama : mario mario...guess i have the most to say abt you even though you think im not observing. never ready to trust someone completely. only reason he is in control is because of his wealth. super direct guy. and he penalized me for ever being so direct about my feelings because he says it will hurt a girls feelings. tells me to not to be so emo and not to make my hand gestures so obvious because people dont like others to talk behind them...thanks for the tip mario. but you are no different. if you are that sensitive towards girls, you would have had plenty of girlfriends in the past. The only reason im what i am now is because im just collecting useful intel for future manipulation. SO DUN BE SO FARKING FULL OF YOURSELF. even if you tell me you are doing this as a friend.HA wellllll....so be it. I am what I Am. but thanks for reminding me of my purpose =) i almost lost track of it.
Max : malay hip dude. hmm...he seems farking stressed abt everything. for fark man? whos the one failing? whos the one getting backstabbed? me. so dun farking keep saying stressed. I AM MORE FARKING STRESSED THAN YOU WHEN I CANT TRUST ANYONE.
Shaun Sim : so far my views are neutral for him. but who knows? he could have bastard me for all i know. same poly , we even know the same friend. and he wouldnt have known this orientation team if not for me. cos i was the one who introduced him to the team...but i guess he has forgotten.
Terence Lim : (who the hell was he again?) oh ya..skirt chaser like our horny bastard kia Derrick Ho.
Sheesh...writing all these has given me a very bad headache. in the end no one is perfect.so i wonder why people always have to criticise me of what i am. seriously people, i can be a greater asshole than what i am now, dont tempt me. i still have not forgotten what i did to my good secondary school fren jingsheng...and believe me, i enjoyed it. the terror, the feeling of him going crazy when i told on him to his precious girlfriend. He deserved it.not saying i am not in the wrong, oh yes i was wrong to tell on him, but im just returning the favour on what a lousy fren he had been for the past 15 years of our brotherhood. ahahaha, vengeance is so sweet. but that is my true nature. im not having a split personality or whatsoever, but thats just me. Unable to take criticisms, unable to trust, an endless capacity to hate, a vengeful spirit, a destroyer of what he loves, a loner. everything has its price. and unfortunately, i guess this is the path i chose after facing so much rejection and sadness and sorrow and knowing so many pretentious hypocrites with insincere sincerity. people there are always two sides to any story. So i pray you do not forgive me for what i have become.