FYH is coming back this friday which is the 23rd june..kinda chatted with him on msn.he was asking how were the rest of us were doing.i simply replied we have found our own lives..i do think that is pretty much the picture.js is busy working paying off debts...or not i do not know.if not he has probably found his own group of friends..gw has stopped going out with us completely cos he said it was too boring hanging out with us.lwx is busy with the world cup these days and he is going to china soon..tpk is in the police force on a regular basis and he has no time to meet up cos of gf commitments and gxl is working weird shifts so its difficult to meet up.................................................
yup...i guess we unofficially split up as good friends.mutual understanding?i dont know..was telling von about this when we met up on friday...it will just get more lonely on weekends for me..everyone has found their own lives...so i should too right? planning to enrol in ntu to continue my engineering degree.my last resort is sim.hmm.....its really boring nowadays..nothing much to do in camp.word is we are going to be posted out again....i really wonder what the hell is wrong with the system.i mean seriously if they didnt want us in a particular unit then dont post us there in the first place.post here post there..i feel like registered mail sometimes.bulky item category. just pray for the better stuff.i just want to ord in peace with no extras.just let me leave in peace.SIGH. hell...i am so bored..i know life isnt always that meaningless...but at the moment i cant help but feel that way..i have been searching for my interest...but i cant seem to find any..that is the problem when you are an all rounder..you find something of interest and for awhile you are very interested but much later the interest dies out ...
got in touch with an old friend recently...but after knowing her again...i think she is the kind who just makes use of guys to do her bidding.imagine asking me to pay for dinner two days in a row when she has a boyfriend..just because the boyfriend is abit thrifty on food and clothing and he doesnt like her to spend, so when he is in camp she calls me out for dinner and just as we were approaching our designated area to dine , she casually puts her hand on my shoulder and asks sweetly " R, can you pay first?im broke." and smiles sweetly.and guess where we were?kuishin- bo at suntec city..two days later the same scenario happened at bugis.we sit down at mos burger and she just said "R ,buy me this and that,that and this" and she happily chatted away on her mobile phone with her bf on the line without even looking at the reaction i had on my face.i swallowed it like a gentleman and went to buy what she wanted.but you know what the infuriating part that really pissed me off? she changed seats without even helping me bring my belongings to the new table.it was only when i brought the food to the new seats i asked where my bag was and there she was still happily chatting on her phone with her bf and she just said sorry she didnt notice.WHAT THE FUCK MAN.i nearly blew my top.it was really my limit.i wanted to yell at her what the heck do you think i am?i dont even think you treat me like a friend.im just you other atm just cos your bf refuses to spend on you.i still remember every detail for that day.damn pissed man.all she does is complain her bf smokes,drinks and gambles and refuses to spend on her and yet she dun wanna do anyhting about it saying no choice she loves him and she dun wanna change bf again just cos everyone around her is sticking to their partner and getting married while she is still happily changing wardobes.FUCK that logic of hers man.if thats really the case then dont ever complain to me all the bad points about your bf cos you chose.many a time she hinted that she is sick and tired of the life she is having now with her current beau cos its not what she wants.to see him gamble every weekend and wait on him while she sits down on the couch with nothing to do..then find your happiness is what i always teel her.dump him and find a richer more handsome bf who can cater to your materialistic needs.thats the problem with girls nowadays.all fucking materialistic.guy must have a car before he stands a chance to date her.must have spending power before they can get together.is money really what makes the world go round???im starting to hate it more and more.its a frickin' messed up world...
i guess there is a price to pay for everything.no wonder i chose to be single...but loneliness is the price i pay...losing friends is another cos everyone is getting attached...
--"When will it happen?...."
