Catastrophe..Calamity..

Its on the news...the first earthquake to hit South East Asia in 40 years?...death toll still on the rise...is mother nature really having her revenge on us?for leeching on to her like parasites and she finally has to rumble Asia?..oh look its mother richter scale...she is definitely erupting somewhere...come to think of it, it is rather scary to hear such news...who knows when Singapore will be hit...but we are definitely not prepared for this natural disasters...all thanks to the complacencey that we will never experience natural disasters now or ever...that leads to a thousand and one reasons why we never built a house that can withstand an earthquake..oh well...i was out cycling earlier and i experienced strong gales..almost lost my balance on my mountain bike..unusually strong winds in my area since i live near the coast...i hope this is not a bad omen..the wind was strong enough to topple a dustbin half filled with trash...i hope we will be prepared if there really is a crisis...other than that well, don't think about it..hope for the better things in life...

--"Where will you be the day after tomorrow?"

Holy Day

Aye...today is christmas..the usual im not celebrating at all...got an invitation to go Double O...but i think i'll pass...not exactly in the mood...wonder what i should tell diana when she calls...haiz...its been quiet the past few weeks...nothing much happened...met up with my old secondary school friends on thursday at holland village for a small gathering.six guys occupying a table at coffe bean...or was it starbucks??AIYOH...short term memory sia...val joined us later much to my surprise...in the end six guys and one gal to a table...oh man...pengz...conversation were the usual topics...missing the old times...days when we had no worries and no responsibilities to tackle..such freedom and care-freeness...those were the times when we really lived...but not everything stays the same...some get married, some are working, some are in the army...some are pursuing a degree, some are still in poly, some have quit school and started working...some are still slacking around and not having a goal in life...
i guess i have my path worked out so far...have 9 more days till i get into army...i will be studying again...its going to be Law or Psychology if nothing goes wrong...along the way i work for my driving license...and hopefully if all goes well, i get a car...2004 was reaally sucky...i hope next year would be better...i really need a life...i need to start living again...i need to start working on my career...
but you know what?the great thing about this year was that i found out who my really great friends are...there are those who forsaken me and those who still remember me all this time...and yes...it was a really wonderful feeling...and i finally went out with janice again...my neighbour whom i have known for sooooo long but i can use my fingers to count the number of times we actually went out together...hahahahaha spent my christmas eve with her after my work..went to indoor stadium to celebrate...city harvest had an event there and it was cool...got to know a girl from limin and xingyu called may when we were having lunch together and she also went for the celebration at indoor stadium...but i never saw her there..(of course lor...the stadium soooo big, how to spot???) had dinner with janice after the celebration and reached home at around 1230am...we wanted to go for the countdown at orchard but thinking about the 20000 people that might be there, we decided to give it a pass... and now i realised what kind of girl i like...i like a girl who can hold an intelligent conversation...i like girls who are humble and do not boast...i like girls who do not wear make-up..i like girls who dress their age...and most importantly i like girls who are not B-I-T-C-H-E-S.

--"People can only be happy by awakening the truth within themselves"

Homosapiens

We are all human beings; in that regard, we are all the same.
The only real difference lies in people's life-conditions.
Our life-condition continues beyond death, into eternity.
Therefore, as the Daishonin says,
"Faith alone is what really matters."

--"There is some fiction in the truth and some truth in the fiction...huh??what???"

Strength

Become individuals who are strong physically, intellectually and spiritually. To be strong in all three areas is the ideal. Many people may be strong in one or two of these areas, but only when all three are combined can we enjoy a well-balanced life, a life of resounding victory. Those who cultivate such all-around strength are never defeated.

--"People fear what they do not understand and condemn.."

Time

Treasure what you have...

Time is too slow for those who wait;

Too swift for those who fear;

Too long for those who grief;

Too short for those who rejoice;

But for those who love...

Time is Eternity...

--"If we make a choice without understanding it, it could have disastrous consequences..."

Infinity

Two things in this world are infinite...
The universe and human stupidity...
BUT im not sure about the universe...

--"Are we there yet?Are we there yet?Are we there yet?...If not...When will we get there? When will we get there?"

Beyond The Boundaries

Message of the blowing wind
Erasing memories
Stars are the witnesses of our existence
Change is what the world awaits
Could that be peace or war?
The answer no one knows
Trusting the break of dawn
The blue bird flies away

Travelling beyond the bounds
We have to take that step
What are we waiting for.
It's now or never
Fear to see "The World to Be"
Is why we hesitate
Repeat the same mistake
Hoping to break new ground
The blue bird flies away

Reaching out to catch the sun
To hold it in our hands
Longing for something strong to hide our weaknesess
Soon the light may disappear
Nothing is meant to last
Yet we believe our world
Searching for happiness
The blue bird flies away

--"Blessed is he who believes without seeing.."

Dominator Series

hmm...took a few tests today regarding personalities...and i found out i fall in the dominator category...well...its kinda true in a sense that i hate to lose..but losing sometimes to a worthy adversary gives me a sense of resurrection...and i hate alot of stuff in life...hate it when people expect me to do shit for them...hate it when people dont listen and expect me to listen to their advice...hate it when people play smart aleck..hate it when people dont give a damn how others feel and keep talking about themselves...hate it when people dont listen to good advice and when shit falls on them they shift the responsibility and expect you to clean up after them...hate it when people try to change me when i never changed anything about them in the first place...hate it when people think they are the best of the best of the best.hate fairweather friends...hate it when they dont pay their dues and keep borrowing more from you...hate hypocrites...hate it when they dont help you in a crisis but expect you to help them when they are in deep shit...
man...why am i complaining?bcos i am the dominator series...yayayaya...
then again...who am i to judge how others feel and react?oh well..i guess it depends on the circumstances..still dont think everyones an asshole out there...there is hope...even in the darkest hour...

Fated Circle

I just got back from cycling with a friend...well..i dont know him very well...and he certainly had a motive for getting me out to cycle..i wonder who told him about my stuff...must be angie or karen...cant think of any one else who would say it out...i wonder why are some people soo interested in my past life...yeah i cant forget about it...i cant move on properly...i cant find my happiness...i still have nightmares...the memories still haunt me...big deal...
Allan i dont know what you are trying to do...but seriously i dont think its going to work...i am after all a hard nut to crack...thats the way i always will be...there is certainly no point in getting me to convert to your faith when you cant even get your facts right...why ruin our evening of cycling with your ethics?no man is one hundred percent correct with his reasonings on life..you claim i am an extremist but does that mean leading a non-extremist life would be problem-free?
geez...what is it with people and their reasons?in the end everyone is selfish...
and hell there is certainly nobody who is going to tell me how i should lead my life..i choose, my choice.i will take control of my life.i will find what i am looking for.i will continue my road of self-discovery.yes life sucks for me, its a torture, i may not be happy in the process, i may not find what i am looking for, but it is still better than waiting around for the heavens to fall on my head.
dear Allan, im sorry if you felt that you wasted your time on me with your ethics...but seriously that is your problem..i have moved on...doesnt matter what you think...i will still be the same person you know...nothing matters to me anymore...i will just do what i want...i can no longer be nice..try harder Al...you've got a long way...your motivation skills are just too futile...you are not me...you dont know me at all...take care of yourself Al...i wont know if i will be seeing you again...
but hey dont worry, i will be strong...haha with my own strength of course...

--"Strength is the mark of a true man, but it is his soul that determines his tenderness.."

The Will To Do

I've been watching you awhile
Since you walked into my life
Monday morning, when first I heard you speak to me
I was too shy to let you know
Much too scared to let my feelings show
But you shielded me and that was the beginning
Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try,
I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel
My bleeding heart begins to race
When I turn to see your face
I remember that sweet dream
Which you told to me
I wanted just to be with you
So we could make the dream come true
And you smiled at me and that was the beginning
Now at last we can talk
In another way
And though I try,
I love you,
Is just so hard to say
If I only could be strong
And say the words I feel
Tell me what you're thinking of
Tell me if you love me not
I have so much I long to ask you
But now the chance has gone
When your picture fades each day
In my heart the memory stays
Though we rant, you're always smiling
And I will hold it long

--"I'm no angel, but does that mean that I can't try?
I'm no angel, but does that mean I cant live my life?"

A Moment Of Silence

the year is drawing to an end...all i hear this year are sad or disheartening news..just yesterday another soul departed from this world..a friend whom i have known almost my whole life told me her grandpa passed away...i kept quiet again as usual...no..i did not go for the wake...for mainly the reason was i did not know her grandpa...i never saw him before...i do not know how she is feeling now...neither do i know what to say anymore...offer my condolences?...haiz...2004...even the number doesnt look nice...2005 has got to be a better year...this year all i see is suffering...couples breaking up...people departing from this world...friends failing all their subjects..accidents..friends turning on each other..there was practically nothing to look forward to except the fact i finally got my diploma...a triumph with no one to share with...but then again...i no longer bother about myself...only resolution was to make people feel better...but there is a limit to what i can do always...
X...may your grandpa rest in peace...he has ascended to the heavens to be with the gods..godspeed..

--"Beyond the boundaries of life..we make the same mistakes hoping to break new ground.."