Yes of course from the title itself , the year is 2010. two years before the end of the world some predicted in 2012. well of course with no apparent and more conclusive solid evidence who the hell can actually prove it? and yes who cares if the world does end? millions would of course have regrets not living their life to the fullest and of course again i would be one of them. well enough of that. end or not there are times where ending is the start of a new beginning so in the end, it may not be such a bad idea to start all over again.
I changed from full time to part time studies. i do not know if it was a good move at all cos given my nature, i always look at both sides of a coin and can never come to terms with a decision i make with absolute conviction. namely because there is never one best solution and there is always a bloody trade off or opportunity cost given up cos we can never have the best of both worlds. And yes , perhaps until i find out what the trade off is for myself, i will be stuck in this limbo.
Things always happen suddenly for me. goodbyes are sudden, change is sudden, plans are sudden... friends are sudden... even my change to part time studies was sudden. i only know that the incentive i have by changing is to save on a few modules and graduate earlier. but who knows what kind of people i will meet for this half a year....again and again because of my decision, i am alone again. well, not that i am complaining, but it does get abit lonely when you have no one in class to talk to. haiz... well... i guess i have always been alone...cant really do anything about it unless i really change. but how can i trust again? how can i believe again? again and again year after year i still feel empty inside. i am seriously lacking a certain component to complete myself. and yes well, such components are not easy to find. guess i will see what kind of potential friends i may find tonight... it may not be as bad as i think... always look on the bright side and i may find one good friend or a few good friends...who knows? just hope for the best.
should i be logging anything else? hmm... well well well.... apparently, after my bangkok trip which i so "thoroughly enjoyed" no more late night gatherings by my uni friends...sighz...people are really realistic and selfish. well at least i can save some cash. i pray for a miracle...
-- 50% attitude, 40% aptitude, 10% skill.
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