Running on empty

Okay...as the title says im still running on empty and the feeling of not having a bloody goal sucks man...and time and time again we have other people setting expectations on you and they expect you to perform if not you lose your job and become particularly useless to them.In short , you will be left in a corner to catch dust..hmm...not such a bad thing after all come to think of it. At least i get to do things at my own pace.man, i really wonder when was the last time i actually picked up a pen to write something on a piece of paper.Seems to me everything is controlled by a mouse and keyboard.And yes, the invention of an online diary called THE BLOG.Wonder why they call it a blog anyway.I remember clearly that the word blog is associated to a monster called The Blog or the Blog monster..wonder if anyone actually noticed that there was actually a movie about it.hahahaaha..i met someone recently, but apparently i wasnt ready to be in another relationship.Of course, naturally we just ended up being friends...but i dont think she has given up yet... =( haiz...sorry...guess i cant give up my present life yet..if its not that i guess im just not ready for another relationship...though we do have many things in common and finally i had someone whom i can have intelligent conversations with, the thought just scares me... =p
imagine facing myself, talking to myself, knowing everything about myself...yikes...
2005 is coming to an end..what is my resolution for 2006? First thing on the list, Sony ericsson W900i!!!!
well, thought of getting the Ipod Video...but im gonna see what creative has to offer before making any decision..seems that they are coming up with something better..gotta see the specifications first...hoohoo...oh well...lonely christmas this year as usual...maybe i should start asking people out?...sad...hmm...patience patience...im sure something good is coming up soon...it wasnt so bad that i had to change unit...in fact, its much better in safti..for that i shouldnt dread so much... =p haha
oh well...just glad that i did not sever any ties with anybody this year..tomorrow is GXL's birthday..going to help him out at his bbq.then saturday its CLUB MOMO time!!! well, not going to think so much...just gonna enjoy myself hoohoo...party party!