okay its been really some time since i actually blogged my thoughts..actually been thinking of closing down this blogsite since i do not really need it.or rather i guess im the only one updating and reading my past all over and over...and yes...it is starting to lose meaning for me again and again...
at times i try to improve my life...take things simple, try to stop thinking too much, accept things the way they are, do something useful, enjoy singlehood, go to gym more often, see a doctor for the multiple injuries i sustained thanks to army, going for my brain scan to see if anything cocks up again...meaningless...i know where the problem lies after wandering around in life...it lies with me...i cant accept myself for who i am.i cant take the way my life is.i am just simply not satisfied with what i have.it seems that i want more out of this pathetic life.but i hate it when circumstances do not permit me to do what i desire.i feel like im falling back into the pits of irony.i dont have anything but myself...this body..this weak pathetic body filled with an iron will...its just not enough..so when will it be enough?...
--"Trekk the path of loneliness if you are invincible.."
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