i guess most probably i will be going back to take my degree in engineering...since my dad says i dont have a goal at the moment...just study back what i have already got in hand...making my life easier...
hopefully a path opens up along the way.haiz...the boredom is really killing me man...i need something exciting to do.interest...where is my interest?
what the hell am i interested in??? machines....that was my childhood interest...i wanted to build a machine...robots..but for what purpose?weapons...my second interest....but weapons bring wars...in the midst of protecting people, they bring about destruction...so what good are my interests?
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Cold Planet
man...its 2006 and its still pouring like mad out there.sure rain is cool but not too much rain.it really spoils plans if we already had in mind something fun or exciting to do for the day.haiz...another boring sunday afternoon at home....but friday was the craziest night i had in an awfully long time but it was cool , way cool. it was (D)'s birthday, me and js were invited.told gxl and LWS to tag along but they refused.we got them into cheeky monkeys in the end where (D) had her birthday celebration but hell she was a terrible host.she didnt even bother abt our presence.wonder why she invited us in the first place?she was too busy entertaining her closer friends and colleagues.well all was not wasted since we were at mohammed sultan.LWS suggested that we head down to dbl O as his friends were there and they were having free entry before 11pm.sounded like a plan...haha too bad js was too bored and he went to fetch sylvia home from work.man...he really missed out on alot of fun.LWS friends actually bought drinks for everyone on the house.we did not even cough out a single cent that night. =p shots and beers were on the house thanks to the cheap jugs dbl o had.i guess dbl o still could stand despite competition from ministry of sound which opened recently..we partied until i decided to go and say bye to (D) at cheeky monkeys but apparently she was not there anymore when i went back.oh well, on to club momo then. =p
we really went to three places in a night and man...there was just too much booze...but i decided to leave slightly earlier as i was just recovering...falling sick so easily nowadays.what on earth is wrong with me?....im supposed to be stronger than this...and the usual, js stayed behind to fool around..thankfully he didnt get into any trouble..on saturday i guess all of us were in a state of concussion to do anything..heck i couldnt even play badminton properly...moral of the story...if its booze, it depletes your stamina and affects your athletic performance badly, period...oh well i went over to grandmas place for dinner before js called to meet up at arnd 830pm. we headed down to mr beans opposite paradiz centre for coffee and meals with gxl, LWS, TPK, sylvia and agnes..sent sylvia and agnes home before we went to The Balcony at heeren to chill out over a few drinks..practically we were just stoning...then we headed over to west coast prata shop to eat and headed home at around 3plus in the morning..haha great weekend.
despite all this ...its the same usual quiet, lonely, eerie, creepy feeling i have crawling inside me...there is still something missing from my life...yeah...i have to admit...its that someone special...haiz...TPK did ask me about it...he just told me not to worry...maybe i shouldnt worry ya...after all there is no point is there?...i hope the loneliness doesnt take over me.it is still under control so far..finally got myself a seiko watch after so many years of waiting..geez...dad always gives empty promises...what the heck.its monday tomorrow, i think its gonna be a fast week.next thing you know its gonna be friday, again...
--"It's cold out there...nobody cares...but i still have to be strong...So that I may find a place
where i belong in this world.."
we really went to three places in a night and man...there was just too much booze...but i decided to leave slightly earlier as i was just recovering...falling sick so easily nowadays.what on earth is wrong with me?....im supposed to be stronger than this...and the usual, js stayed behind to fool around..thankfully he didnt get into any trouble..on saturday i guess all of us were in a state of concussion to do anything..heck i couldnt even play badminton properly...moral of the story...if its booze, it depletes your stamina and affects your athletic performance badly, period...oh well i went over to grandmas place for dinner before js called to meet up at arnd 830pm. we headed down to mr beans opposite paradiz centre for coffee and meals with gxl, LWS, TPK, sylvia and agnes..sent sylvia and agnes home before we went to The Balcony at heeren to chill out over a few drinks..practically we were just stoning...then we headed over to west coast prata shop to eat and headed home at around 3plus in the morning..haha great weekend.
despite all this ...its the same usual quiet, lonely, eerie, creepy feeling i have crawling inside me...there is still something missing from my life...yeah...i have to admit...its that someone special...haiz...TPK did ask me about it...he just told me not to worry...maybe i shouldnt worry ya...after all there is no point is there?...i hope the loneliness doesnt take over me.it is still under control so far..finally got myself a seiko watch after so many years of waiting..geez...dad always gives empty promises...what the heck.its monday tomorrow, i think its gonna be a fast week.next thing you know its gonna be friday, again...
--"It's cold out there...nobody cares...but i still have to be strong...So that I may find a place
where i belong in this world.."